I dreamed that I was back with my ex from college. In real life, we remained friends, but I couldn't stay with him because he partied too much, plus I think we were just friends. Now, I'm going back to him in this dream. But I get there and there is another woman. She leaves and I'm trying to unpack, but the place is a mess. I try to clean it, but decide I don't want to stay. I pack everything back up again. A close friend from college and my Mom are helping me. We leave but I have to stop by the doctor's office. For them to see me, they need my insurance card. We bring all the boxes and bags from moving into the doctor's office and began searching for my insurance card. A computer company comes to help with the search. I can't find it anywhere. The thing is that I've had the same insurance member number for years now, so there's a number of cards I have, like 5-6, that would have the number on it, but we can't find a single one. And we find lots from other insurance providers, but their in envelopes that look like my insurance. At first, I say, I think I'm just nervous and can't focus. Then about 6 hours later, the computer company say they can't keep look and need to leave. I say I understand and I appreciate their help. At this point, I think this is weird. I say to someone, I think the devil has a hand in this, the devil doesn't want me to get proper care and is making it hard to find my insurance card. A person next to me agrees. I don't really know if that's it or not. I'm partially saying from the perplexity of not being able to find the insurance card after all this time, and it shouldn't be this difficult. I think I'm just about to find it, and I wake up. In a second dream, my friend is still helping me move. We are carrying all of these bags. She reminds me to check on my kitties. I do and they're dehydrated. I give them lots of water. In real life, I'd never have let this happen, so much so, I almost didn't include it for this dream interpretation. I felt tremendous shame. I was so happy they were going to be okay. But I couldn't believe I had let them get thirsty.
Dreams can often reflect our subconscious thoughts, feelings, and experiences, providing insights into our current emotional and psychological state. Your dream contains several key themes which can be interpreted in various ways.
Revisiting the Past: Dreaming about your ex from college may symbolize unresolved feelings or nostalgia for that period of your life. The fact that you are back with him suggests a desire to explore what could have been or to reconcile your past experiences, both positive and negative. The presence of another woman could represent feelings of competition or inadequacy, perhaps highlighting your concerns about relationships or emotional fulfillment.
Disarray and Control: The messy living space in the dream signifies chaos or lack of control in some aspect of your life. Your attempts to clean it reflect a desire to restore order, yet your decision to leave suggests a recognition that not all situations can or should be fixed. This internal conflict may parallel your current circumstances or relationships, indicating that you are facing issues you want to address but feel overwhelmed by.
Seeking Validity and Health Concerns: The search for your insurance card can symbolize a search for validation, security, and care in your life. Insurance can represent protection, and your struggle to find the card might suggest feelings of insecurity or a fear of losing support. The mention of the “devil” interfering implies your sense of frustration and an acknowledgment that external factors are making it challenging for you to seek the help you need.
Responsibility and Guilt: In the second part of your dream, the experience of neglecting your kitties signifies feelings of guilt and responsibility. It might suggest worries you have about not taking care of obligations or loved ones in your waking life. The tremendous shame you felt could indicate an underlying fear of failing in your responsibilities, even if this scenario of neglect is not reflective of how you usually behave.
Teamwork and Support: The inclusion of your friend and mother points to the importance of relationships and support networks in your life. They represent the help you may need to navigate challenges you're facing. Asking for their help in a chaotic situation suggests that you acknowledge the importance of relying on others during difficult times.
Overall, this dream seems to reflect your feelings of nostalgia for the past, an assessment of current life challenges, and the emotional burdens tied to responsibilities, care, and vulnerability. It’s an invitation to examine these feelings in your waking life, recognizing where you might need to affirm your needs, address unresolved issues, or seek help from those around you.